19 March 2009

solidarity's improper musings

“Sometimes, there are things in our life that aren’t meant to stay. Sometimes, change may not be what we want. Sometimes, change is exactly what we need. And sometimes, saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you’ll ever have to do, but sometimes, saying hello again is the thing that breaks you down and makes you more vulnerable than you ever thought possible. Sometimes, change is too much to bear. but most of the time, change is the only thing saving your life.”

I got so used to happiness and beauty
now that it's gone I feel like I can't breathe to scream


Every moment reverberates with the disappointment of what it isn't,
what I'm not, what I no longer can be.

what is this maddening silence,
this wicked perversion of everything i loved?